there were so many sundays that i sat in church and heard about how God will bring us through the darkest of times.
there were so many moments that i was out figuratively in the wilderness, wondering if and when i would break through to the other side.
i would sit and believe in my heart that the dead would raise and that life would come back but never in a million years did i think it would be quite like this.
that i would know the joy of sitting in a church service and listening to a sermon "life conquers death" and hear "all suffering is temporary" and know in my heart that i had been delivered successfully out of my suffering.
two years ago i typed: never in my life has the gospel made so much and so little sense to me
and now two years later i am a living manifestation of the gospel of the love of God. a God who saw me in a very, very dark place and chose to let me continue to a place with no hope to display His hope to me. a God who in His MERCY allowed me to suffer that I might know the full and deep joy that comes after when one chooses to follow Him.
I can't explain it logically to you all, I can't give an algorithm as to why it's true. I know only the eternal hope that lives in my heart. I know the beating heart that transplanted the heart of stone that existed before. I know the grace and mercy that follow me in each and every interaction with my children.
and ya'll, for the first time in my life, I get the joy. I understand and feel the true JOY that comes from Him.
May this day stand as a testament to future days when I don't feel it. May this stone never cease to worship the consistency and faithfulness of our Father in Heaven. and may my Hope in Him be ever on display. For I have been delivered out of a pit of despair and now sit in a valley of peace.
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