I have seen a lot of "summer is ending!" "fall is here" posts. While I am normally one of the first to jump on the fall bandwagon... this year I am sitting it out. I am still in tank tops, soaking up the sun, still half-assing it with meals because "who wants to eat when it's 90 degrees out? let's have cereal." and still fully in the summer mind.
For those with older kids, I know some schools started this week and are definitely starting by next week. For my husband and I though, he took his vacation late (it will start this Friday after work!) and this is my last week nannying. In that spirit, I am fully soaking up these last few weeks of our summer, an in between season if you will.
Staying present in the moments that will wind up being our last as a family of three, paying attention to the new things my daughter is doing/saying every day, soaking up the last of the warm warm days before the cool air sets in (although, at least in Ohio, it's been a cool summer and we have already had some very fallish days), enjoying the parks, zoo, and ice cream places now that they aren't as crowded. And of course nesting, I am in full blown nesting craziness over here. Shampooing carpets, cleaning the basements out, wanting to bake bake bake. In truth though, I don't know when he will arrive. In my mind, we are in fair game territory. So really these last few moments before I meet him read like the end of a very, very good book. They might make you a little mournful, but you are better having read it.
The next couple months hold exciting things and while I will embrace fall when it arrives... sweet summer, stay a little longer.
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Wednesday, June 25, 2014
It's Wednesday. I'm a bit tapped for this week if I am going to be honest. Addy started on the monitor at five am this morning and I woke up realizing I was in the exact same position that I fell asleep in last night, I didn't even get up to pee.
That being said, this summer is sweet and full of hope and life and joy. I have been struggling, struggling in a way of "jesus, this is the fifth freaking tantrum and the clock hasn't even hit 6:30 yet" "holy hell how can I be so mad at such a small human?" and struggling physically. Adelynn is way more physical than I bargained for and is into climbing e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.
That being said. This summer is sweet. I am overwhelmed and probably a bit underprepared for the biggest change that will take place in the nest few months but I have a boy that is kicking me every second of every day in my belly and I have a daughter that wraps her arms around me and when I do leave and come back gets so excited she just about has a conniption fit "MOMMY!!!!" I get to end my days with my soul mate and partner. I have a tan for the first time ever because I actually get to spend my days outside as opposed to in an office. We have plans for fruit stands and grilled corn, pulled pork and cupcakes. My family is coming together, we are growing and maturing and laughing and crying, usually every day.
I struggle with a lot and I don't know a lot, but I can tell you that I can look at Jim and know that he is my soul mate. I look at A and know that, while she is way more than I bargained for, she is mine and the greatest gift I have been given. I look at my stomach and know that in a couple of months, for the very first time, I will set eyes on my son. For now, this is enough.
That being said, this summer is sweet and full of hope and life and joy. I have been struggling, struggling in a way of "jesus, this is the fifth freaking tantrum and the clock hasn't even hit 6:30 yet" "holy hell how can I be so mad at such a small human?" and struggling physically. Adelynn is way more physical than I bargained for and is into climbing e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.
That being said. This summer is sweet. I am overwhelmed and probably a bit underprepared for the biggest change that will take place in the nest few months but I have a boy that is kicking me every second of every day in my belly and I have a daughter that wraps her arms around me and when I do leave and come back gets so excited she just about has a conniption fit "MOMMY!!!!" I get to end my days with my soul mate and partner. I have a tan for the first time ever because I actually get to spend my days outside as opposed to in an office. We have plans for fruit stands and grilled corn, pulled pork and cupcakes. My family is coming together, we are growing and maturing and laughing and crying, usually every day.
I struggle with a lot and I don't know a lot, but I can tell you that I can look at Jim and know that he is my soul mate. I look at A and know that, while she is way more than I bargained for, she is mine and the greatest gift I have been given. I look at my stomach and know that in a couple of months, for the very first time, I will set eyes on my son. For now, this is enough.
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