it is Monday of baby week. officially. I held up his little going home outfit to Jim yesterday and said "there is going to be a PERSON in this by the end of this week." a baby yes, to snuggle and feed and hold, but a person - to get to know, to help develop. it is overwhelming in the very best sense.
my thoughts on a repeat scheduled C-section are conflicted, which is kind of ironic. I chose a c-section the first time but since I went early, I never had time to be nervous or overthink my delivery choice. My water broke at 12:45, my daughter came into the world at 3:25. I have had a lot of anxiety over the surgery itself and the recovery. I am very nervous, but I know that there is help around, I just need to be humble enough to ask for it if I need it.
So, just three full days remain between now and when I meet my baby. I am trying my best to soak up every minute with Addie, who by the way, definitely knows something is up. She has a baby boy that her great grandma sent her in preparation and she always says "baybay boy!" in this very Irish brogue way, it's hilarious. She brings up the baby and says "yes" when we ask her if mommy is having a baby.
I know people do this all the time but I am very very nervous to be away from her. This will be the first night I have ever spent away and it kind of breaks my heart. I told Jim last night that I wish she could be in the hospital with us from start to finish but of course, obviously she can't.
I have always loved fall and I absolutely am thrilled that both of my kids will have birthdays in the fall. The changing leaves, pumpkins, apple cider, cooler temps and sweaters. To me it is almost, if not more so, as magical as Christmas. There are so many many good things to be thnkful for and look forward to, and while my anxiety is there, I don't want to lose sight of the good. Of a healthy, stable pregnancy thus far - difficult though it has been, of celebrating two years with my daughter, and of course, bringing a new life into the world that will forever change and shape my family. I am so very very blessed to carry this baby and I can't wait to meet him.
Happy Fall everyone.
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How did we get halfway through September?
Monday, September 15, 2014
You guys. Can I just take a moment and say that Adelynn is so good. Like just such a good kid. It is easy to get caught up in the hard things of toddlerhood, but overall she is so well behaved. She rarely misbehaves in public, usually stays close to me when we are out, will sit (somewhat) patiently through my doctor's appointments with me, goes to sleep so well, is so gentle with our small dogs. I could go on and on but it just makes my heart swell. Sometimes I don't realize how good she is until I see other people's kids out in action (ya know i'm right!) and you see this wild hooligan running fifty thousand feet in front of their parents screaming like a banshee and just think "holy shit."
That being said. Not much to report over here. Tomorrow is my last day being pre-term and so in my head I am basically to term. While an exciting feat, I have never made it this far before in pregnancy- so I am also like "WTF this gets super uncomfortable at the end ya'll." I am in that bittersweet place of trying to soak up our last moments as a family of three and also am just super super excited to see that sweet, tiny face for the first time.
With temps dropping into the 30's overnight here (!!!) it is starting to definitely feel officially like fall. I, however, am refusing to believe fall is here until he arrives. I feel like his birth is going to officially kick off the season for me (is that silly?). Until then I am holding tightly to my summer dreams, even if I am doing it wrapped in a blanket.
Also, I am curious, all you mama's out there with older siblings, how did you do the introduction? Addy is still young, at almost two. I know her primary concern will be for me and checking on me. I mean, this girl has burst into tears at Doctor's appointments over worry for me. So here is our plan on how we are handling it. She will be with family while I deliver. When she comes to the hospital for the first time, I am going to send her baby brother to the nursery so that when she sees me it will be just her and I for a while. She can "check" on me and we can spend some one on one time together. Then I'll have the baby brought in so she can meet him with me and we can all spend some time together. I am then going to send brother back to the nursery so it's not like he gets to stay with me when she has to leave. I think that will be the best option for our family and for her at tis time. I know there are a million ways to do it but with her being so young, I think this will lead to the best possible processing of the information.
I am getting so so excited, and so so ready. I cannot wait to meet him. Until then, I am going to soak up these last moments with him kicking away.
That being said. Not much to report over here. Tomorrow is my last day being pre-term and so in my head I am basically to term. While an exciting feat, I have never made it this far before in pregnancy- so I am also like "WTF this gets super uncomfortable at the end ya'll." I am in that bittersweet place of trying to soak up our last moments as a family of three and also am just super super excited to see that sweet, tiny face for the first time.
With temps dropping into the 30's overnight here (!!!) it is starting to definitely feel officially like fall. I, however, am refusing to believe fall is here until he arrives. I feel like his birth is going to officially kick off the season for me (is that silly?). Until then I am holding tightly to my summer dreams, even if I am doing it wrapped in a blanket.
Also, I am curious, all you mama's out there with older siblings, how did you do the introduction? Addy is still young, at almost two. I know her primary concern will be for me and checking on me. I mean, this girl has burst into tears at Doctor's appointments over worry for me. So here is our plan on how we are handling it. She will be with family while I deliver. When she comes to the hospital for the first time, I am going to send her baby brother to the nursery so that when she sees me it will be just her and I for a while. She can "check" on me and we can spend some one on one time together. Then I'll have the baby brought in so she can meet him with me and we can all spend some time together. I am then going to send brother back to the nursery so it's not like he gets to stay with me when she has to leave. I think that will be the best option for our family and for her at tis time. I know there are a million ways to do it but with her being so young, I think this will lead to the best possible processing of the information.
I am getting so so excited, and so so ready. I cannot wait to meet him. Until then, I am going to soak up these last moments with him kicking away.
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Tuesday, August 12, 2014
a huge storm just rolled in here, and although I am saying a silent prayer to the gods that our basement doesn't get any water in it (seriously right now our basement looks like hoarders... we are just out of room) something feels right about having the storm today. it's a cozy day, addy is napping, and I am curled up on the couch with my ever present reminder of the baby boy. we are rolling closer to his due date and while I can wax on emotional forever about it, I thought I would share a couple recent things that have been going through my head.
With Addy finally in her big girl room, the nursery is empty and looking pretty bare. Most of the stuff is going to stay the same and I won't fully commit to a lot of things until we move but I have found myself wanting to pick up just a couple things for him.
I am really drawn to the idea of using constellations as inspiration for his room. The universe/cosmos is something Jim has always been so interested in and as I have gotten older I have tried my best to start to study it more. I think it would be great to instil that wonder in a child from a young age and the tapestry at $39 bucks is a steal and something he could grow with. But of course, I love elephants too. I don't know. I am not into super ornate nurseries, one because our "nursery" is the size of a closet and two, because I hesitate to spend a lot of money on things until I get to know their personality. Although I know Addy's interests and likes will change, I am excited to get to do her room when we move knowing that it will last her the next 3-4 years.
Also I have been on a little cart splurge at Old Navy. Basically I have thousands of things in my cart and hope to pull the trigger soon but probably wont. I do need some new clothes but am wrestling with spending the money. Especially seeing as I can't wear them yet. I am hoping for some good sales around Labor Day and will save the rest for Christmas - but here are a few things I am coveting.
I actually have a pair of these skinny jeans waiting for me post-partum. Lauren from ForLaurenandLauren suggested them as just right for moms who can't handle the down low rise jeans anymore. Since I am constantly showing crack (literally) I am hoping these work for me.
I am really craving this dress for the family photos we will have taken after he comes. I feel like the fit will still be forgiving since I will only be a couple weeks postpartum and am in love with the very fall print. Can't believe it is coming.
The other's are just comfy basics that also look breast feeding friendly. Can't say I am looking forward to planning my wardrobe around having to constantly whip out my boobs again but... what can ya do?
Also my little one turns two in two months and we have already bought most of her gifts! I am going to work on a currently coveting list for her too though as I have spotted some things I think she would love.
Have a great week!
ps. I am not being sponsored by Old Navy (I WISH!) but just really have a cart full of things right now at their website.... :)
With Addy finally in her big girl room, the nursery is empty and looking pretty bare. Most of the stuff is going to stay the same and I won't fully commit to a lot of things until we move but I have found myself wanting to pick up just a couple things for him.
I am really drawn to the idea of using constellations as inspiration for his room. The universe/cosmos is something Jim has always been so interested in and as I have gotten older I have tried my best to start to study it more. I think it would be great to instil that wonder in a child from a young age and the tapestry at $39 bucks is a steal and something he could grow with. But of course, I love elephants too. I don't know. I am not into super ornate nurseries, one because our "nursery" is the size of a closet and two, because I hesitate to spend a lot of money on things until I get to know their personality. Although I know Addy's interests and likes will change, I am excited to get to do her room when we move knowing that it will last her the next 3-4 years.
Also I have been on a little cart splurge at Old Navy. Basically I have thousands of things in my cart and hope to pull the trigger soon but probably wont. I do need some new clothes but am wrestling with spending the money. Especially seeing as I can't wear them yet. I am hoping for some good sales around Labor Day and will save the rest for Christmas - but here are a few things I am coveting.
I actually have a pair of these skinny jeans waiting for me post-partum. Lauren from ForLaurenandLauren suggested them as just right for moms who can't handle the down low rise jeans anymore. Since I am constantly showing crack (literally) I am hoping these work for me.
I am really craving this dress for the family photos we will have taken after he comes. I feel like the fit will still be forgiving since I will only be a couple weeks postpartum and am in love with the very fall print. Can't believe it is coming.
The other's are just comfy basics that also look breast feeding friendly. Can't say I am looking forward to planning my wardrobe around having to constantly whip out my boobs again but... what can ya do?
Also my little one turns two in two months and we have already bought most of her gifts! I am going to work on a currently coveting list for her too though as I have spotted some things I think she would love.
Have a great week!
ps. I am not being sponsored by Old Navy (I WISH!) but just really have a cart full of things right now at their website.... :)
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