this is it baby. we are down to our last couple weeks just you and me. I looked at your daddy today and I asked him if he thought you were ready. he very seriously considered the question (as he does all my questions) and said yes, he thought you were. although, I tend to be a worrier by nature, when I searched my heart, I knew I felt the same way. I think you are ready. in fact, in a lot of ways, you seem just as excited as I am to meet your baby brother.
when I washed and folded his clothes, I brought up the laundry basket from downstairs. I asked you if you knew who the clothes were for and told you they were for your baby brother. You did your new excited face that you are doing where your mouth opens real wide and you get all pumped about life. you then went through all the clothes with me and exclaimed "cute cute!" over all your favorites.
I know it's not going to be all sunshine and roses. life never is, unfortunately. but we only know sweet by knowing bitter. adding a member of a family is a time of transition, for everyone, but I know you will shine. I hope you know above all, that even when I fail, even when it seems like I am impatient, or you are just getting in the way, my love for you is not wavering. Even when it seems like all I do is care for him instead of play with you, my love for you is not wavering. I hope you never ever ever doubt my love.
Receiving you made me a mom, and I can never ever repay you for that gift. You have given me my greatest treasure and my most full joy. I hope that this will be my gift back to you. A sibling, a (hopefully) big family to give you anchors. I grew up so lonely as an only child, I desperately wanted a sibling. My greatest hope is that this will bring you the ultimate in family bonding, someone to go through the tough times with, someone to lean on when your dad and I are old, someone to cling to when things go awry, someone to protect you through life's storms, especially when you feel like you can't talk to you parents.
I love you. I know you are ready, I hope I am too. Please be patient with me as we go through this together. Know that I will always always be there for you.
I love you.
mommy
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a letter to a.
Monday, March 3, 2014
dear daughter,
oh my goodness. you are turning 17 months old in four days. just a month shy of a year and a half old.
you are so intentional with your love now. when you wake up in the morning (inevitably screaming as any time left in your crib alone is too long) the first thing you do when I pick you up is say "hug hug" then "daddy, hug" wanting me to bring you into our room for some snuggles. we lay in our bed and you say hi to everyone "weo, hug hug, cookie, hug hug, daddy, hug hug, mommy, hug" but you never really leave my arms. you are always giving me and your dad hi fives, kisses, and hugs.
you know all the names of those closest to you, granddad and bobbie, gigi and papa, nana and grandpa, tyty, you ask to see ty on the days we aren't nannying but seem to understand when I explain when we will see him next. you are ok being left with others to watch over you, reading books and playing just fine when I tell you mommy will be back.
I am so proud of you vocabulary as you now repeat almost any new phrase you hear. we were listening to "boom boom aint it great to be crazy" and you go "crazy, crazy?!" today I was changing a stinky diaper and I go "oh my" and you immediately go "oh my! oh my!" you are such a little lady now, I am always pinning back your bangs with flower clips, you run along in your little toddler shoes, and your legs are long and skinny. my happy baby is gone, replaced with a charming toddler.
we went through a rough stage, I was having a hard time with some outbursts and the hitting and yelling. I wasn't sure I was doing a good job and we felt cooped up all the time. however, I have turned a corner with you and realized that a lot of it comes from not being able to express yourself (duh!) but also it is just part of the age and I stay consistent with how I handle it every time. you are normally very good about listening and even when you hit me, I sometimes haven't even opened my mouth to correct you before you go "hug, hug?"
I love you baby girl. I am so happy to see the start of March and a beautiful spring/summer/year with you. You are my heart of hearts and I love being your mommy.
I will be forever blessed by you.
Love,
Mommy
oh my goodness. you are turning 17 months old in four days. just a month shy of a year and a half old.
you are so intentional with your love now. when you wake up in the morning (inevitably screaming as any time left in your crib alone is too long) the first thing you do when I pick you up is say "hug hug" then "daddy, hug" wanting me to bring you into our room for some snuggles. we lay in our bed and you say hi to everyone "weo, hug hug, cookie, hug hug, daddy, hug hug, mommy, hug" but you never really leave my arms. you are always giving me and your dad hi fives, kisses, and hugs.
you know all the names of those closest to you, granddad and bobbie, gigi and papa, nana and grandpa, tyty, you ask to see ty on the days we aren't nannying but seem to understand when I explain when we will see him next. you are ok being left with others to watch over you, reading books and playing just fine when I tell you mommy will be back.
I am so proud of you vocabulary as you now repeat almost any new phrase you hear. we were listening to "boom boom aint it great to be crazy" and you go "crazy, crazy?!" today I was changing a stinky diaper and I go "oh my" and you immediately go "oh my! oh my!" you are such a little lady now, I am always pinning back your bangs with flower clips, you run along in your little toddler shoes, and your legs are long and skinny. my happy baby is gone, replaced with a charming toddler.
we went through a rough stage, I was having a hard time with some outbursts and the hitting and yelling. I wasn't sure I was doing a good job and we felt cooped up all the time. however, I have turned a corner with you and realized that a lot of it comes from not being able to express yourself (duh!) but also it is just part of the age and I stay consistent with how I handle it every time. you are normally very good about listening and even when you hit me, I sometimes haven't even opened my mouth to correct you before you go "hug, hug?"
I love you baby girl. I am so happy to see the start of March and a beautiful spring/summer/year with you. You are my heart of hearts and I love being your mommy.
I will be forever blessed by you.
Love,
Mommy
out for breakfast 3/1/14
a letter to my daughter.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
dear a,
time is a fickle friend. never trust it. as you grow it will seem as if the time passes slowly, your years marked by half and quarter birthdays, each day you will wake up with the sunshine in your hair and the possibility of the entire day in front of you. you will wish it away, wanting to be older so you can stay up later, go out with your friends, start to drive, go to college, and then you hopefully will one day have children and time becomes an enemy robbing you of your days, the minutes and hours ticking by faster than you can count.
wasn't it just yesterday you were still curled up in my belly? kicking me and making all sort of alien movements from the outside? wasn't it just yesterday i met you for the first time. your little fists curled into tight balls, your blue eyes closed against the harsh hospital lights.
tonight i held you and you feel asleep in my arms for the first time without being nursed to sleep. you laid you head right on my heart and i sang you song after song until you fell asleep. i think we both knew it was something the other person needed. my lullabies ran out after skidamarink and you are my sunshine so i eventually was singing the lines i know from patience, we didn't start the fire and ain't no mountain high enough. your lanky legs were splaid out over my legs, your stomach warm against my stomach. your breathe gentle on my chest. we've known each other for eleven months darling girl and i would be lying if i said my heart didn't ache for the moments that have passed. your newborn gummy smiles, your first giggles and how proud you were when you learned to sit up.
you call me and daddy by name now, although it is funny you say "mom" and "dad" more than momma or dada. i want so badly to freeze you as you are right now, beautiful and perfect, so proud and mischevious but starting to be such a good listener. we are on the cusp of toddlerhood and as the nights tick by and make my sleeping baby a little older it is hard not to be sad. but baby, i hope you know how excited i am for our future together. to know that we will share so many more years together. i promise to always always always be there for you. i won't ever leave you or stop loving you. you are my joy and my heart, one of my biggest reasons for waking up in the morning and certainly the reason i have a smile on my face when i do.
i love you baby, for all of time and beyond,
xoxoxxxxx
your mom.
time is a fickle friend. never trust it. as you grow it will seem as if the time passes slowly, your years marked by half and quarter birthdays, each day you will wake up with the sunshine in your hair and the possibility of the entire day in front of you. you will wish it away, wanting to be older so you can stay up later, go out with your friends, start to drive, go to college, and then you hopefully will one day have children and time becomes an enemy robbing you of your days, the minutes and hours ticking by faster than you can count.
wasn't it just yesterday you were still curled up in my belly? kicking me and making all sort of alien movements from the outside? wasn't it just yesterday i met you for the first time. your little fists curled into tight balls, your blue eyes closed against the harsh hospital lights.
tonight i held you and you feel asleep in my arms for the first time without being nursed to sleep. you laid you head right on my heart and i sang you song after song until you fell asleep. i think we both knew it was something the other person needed. my lullabies ran out after skidamarink and you are my sunshine so i eventually was singing the lines i know from patience, we didn't start the fire and ain't no mountain high enough. your lanky legs were splaid out over my legs, your stomach warm against my stomach. your breathe gentle on my chest. we've known each other for eleven months darling girl and i would be lying if i said my heart didn't ache for the moments that have passed. your newborn gummy smiles, your first giggles and how proud you were when you learned to sit up.
you call me and daddy by name now, although it is funny you say "mom" and "dad" more than momma or dada. i want so badly to freeze you as you are right now, beautiful and perfect, so proud and mischevious but starting to be such a good listener. we are on the cusp of toddlerhood and as the nights tick by and make my sleeping baby a little older it is hard not to be sad. but baby, i hope you know how excited i am for our future together. to know that we will share so many more years together. i promise to always always always be there for you. i won't ever leave you or stop loving you. you are my joy and my heart, one of my biggest reasons for waking up in the morning and certainly the reason i have a smile on my face when i do.
i love you baby, for all of time and beyond,
xoxoxxxxx
your mom.
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