making breakfast for addy and lane, getting them to school. i usually try to drink a glass of water in this time period and may or may not eat. once they are at school, i usually enjoy the silence for a while, sometimes i journal and fall back asleep, sometimes i use my "computer time" at this point to catch up. my morning are definitely about easing into my day.
how does this pregnancy differ
this has been my hardest pregnancy physically. energy wise i was completely depleted at around 30 weeks and have now stopped working and am still enjoying the benefits of full time childcare until the summer. i never went through pregnancy not working/watching my own children before so that is a lot different. i've completely taken pressure off myself and am resting so much. it's been hard to connect with Christian when all i want to do is crash at 9pm and sleep till the morning. i've definitely had to be gentler with myself so i have energy for kids/man.
cravings
typical, pickles, vinegar, spicy, carbs, ice cream has been a huge one. it's a constant cycle of i'm hungry/i ate too much and have heartburn.
current state of mind
excitement and exhaustion. when the end is in sight it's a very weird threshold to be anticipating. in a couple weeks, i'll be holding a baby again. we'll see the face and how much it looks like or doesn't look like addy/lane.
looking forward to
holding my baby, a beer, walking without waddling, the burst of energy that comes after the initial healing period, not getting heartburn, holding my baby, breweries, fitting into clothes
on being a blended family
this is one of the more unique situations that i think you can experience as a family. obviously with their father being gone i have addy and lane all the time and so we focus a lot of all of us together. it makes it a lot easier in a lot of ways and adds a layer of complexity that most people don't encounter in typical blended situations. so far everyone is super supportive and loving which is great.
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