I am putting off painting, so much freaking painting.  just imagine a 2000 square foot house and everything that can be painted NEEDS painted, except one glorious room, the living room, which they already had painted white.  anyways, we are finishing up the kitchen and family room and you guys, I am getting to that "what day is it, I need nutrients, I am stressed" kind of point.  so anyways, break!

watching: jim and I are still going through Gilmore girls! and bah bah bah! the last episode we watched Schmidt from new girl was in it!  I love finding new characters on old tv shows!

 dealing: out the time outs.  seriously, also I feel like, I wished these work... but they don't.  enough said

losing: the drama.  I was so pumped when we moved because about a month after I moved in I met this lady at the park who was also a runner and I started running with them on Saturdays.  It was nice to have accountability and a weekly "friendish" date.  the last time I ran with them though she was subtly (not so subtly) slamming me the whole time.  whatever, aint nobody got time for that, surround yourself with light people! so I let her know, won't be running with them anymore! also, can I just say that as an adult, it ALWAYS CATCHES ME OFF GUARD WHEN GROWN WOMEN ACT LIKE THEY ARE IN HIGH SCHOOL! ALWAYS! 

dreaming: not much, all dreams are on hold while I get this house into shape, but seriously.  maybe the house is my dream!

committing: to myself, it feels good.  I never thought I would be the type of person to be chirping "just get up at 6am and do it!" but damn, it feels good to be out doing something exclusively for me. and bonus-  even if I do nothing the rest of the day, I still feel productive.

what are you up to this week?

settling in.

we have lived in our house for about two months and although the honey do list grows.  we are slowly but surely settling in.

like most big moves in life, you prepare yourself for what you think will be hard (moving, finances, styling decisions, etc.) but life always throws your curve balls.  personally, I was quite unprepared for just how emotionally overwhelmed I would be in moving.  Outside of all the other stresses, just being in this big(ger) house, with my kids, analyzing the decision.  It was a LOT.  Plus unless you build new construction, it almost feels like you are moving into someone elses life.  It's definitely a different feeling, you own it, but it doesn't feel like yours.  Completely different from how I felt renting houses in the past.

That being said, things are clipping along at a nice place.  We've made pretty much all our paint decisions, made some hard decisions (delaying a fence installation till next year because the money, it does not grow on trees) and have our flooring picked out although the purchasing will be delayed most likely until over the winter.  We painted our shutters, front door, and porch trim black and did our mulch, we still have to paint the back shutters and garage door.

The kids, for the most part have been stars.  Let's be honest, Lane just sleeps, and while there are times Addy is acting out, she is usually one to roll with the punches.  It's been good.  We are settling in, dreaming big, and I am so so thankful for the community that we purchased our home in.  We went to the Memorial day parade over the weekend and my husband ran into a buddy from high school (we moved back to his hometown).  He had such a great and unique high school experience, they were all so close and the town has remained so for the most part. 

I went to a private school and while it worked out ok, I would never send my kids to one unless I had to for education reasons (ie. we were in a terrible school district and their futures would be better) you lose so much community and a sense of belonging.  All of my friends lived far away, I spent a lot of high school very lonely because parents don't want to drive me 45 minutes one way to hang out.  I didn't know any kids in my town and so the community events that normal high schoolers went to, I sat out.  Looking back, I wish I would have made the decision to attend public school (it was my choice but highly encouraged I stay in private) but, such is life.

To make extra money, I have also been busy selling things on ebay.  Not only our old stuff (now I wish I wouldn't have given away all that stuff before we moved!) but re-selling garage sale finds.  I found one house that had a bunch of like new babyGap toddler clothes.  I bought the bin, fished out what I wanted for Addy and have been re-selling the rest.  We have also been garage-saleing quite a bit and while we need to cut back on the spending, we have made some great finds.  (I got natural bamboo blinds for $1 per blind! WTF! SCORE!)

Life has been a good balance, for the most part.  Busy but full of family time.  Work hard, play hard.

Also I have started marathon training! YES! BRING IT ON!

Mothers Day

If this day is hard for you in any capacity. If you've lost a child or your mom, or you can't become a mom.  Just know there are people out there thinking of you today in the midst of everything.  In the happy faces, and pretty dresses, and flowers.  Someone out there is thinking of you and knows you are hurting.  We will get through it and tomorrow will be a new day.  

daily life.

it didn't really take us too long to fall into a schedule after nugget was born.  mostly because he fell into one naturally and while it has morphed some over the months.  this is where we are at now.  with addy at 2.5 and nugget at 7 months on sunday.  it's a good place to be, a precious place in life and while we are still dealing with night wake ups most nights from one or both of them... most of the time we are getting sleep (hallelujah!)

5-6 am: nurse nugget and lay him back down to sleep.  he now sleeps through the night
6:30 -7:15 get up with addy.  she is in our bed at this point usually coming in around 5 or 6 when she hears nugget wake up. we get up, I get coffee, she gets some sort of "breakfast" and she usually plays
7:45-8:30 nugget wakes up for the  day in here sometime and I get him changed and fed breakfast, daddy leaves for work at 8:30

if we are leaving for the day, we usually try to make it out of the house by ten, but the earlier the better.  I try to get ready before lane wakes up so all I have to do is get addy ready, get lane ready, get the diaper bag, get the dogs taken care of, etc etc (!LOL!) lane takes his nap somewhere between 8:30 and 9:30ish. 

addy and I spend our mornings playing, running errands, or a combination of both.  her favorite places are the library and parks.  but if we stay home, the sand box is a current favorite.  she has been loving a lot of books recently and we've been reading the llama llama, duck to the rescue, etc.

jim comes home from lunch around noon which breaks up the day! we usually have a sandwich and a side.  addy eats everything plain (ie not a sandwich) as she has decided she doesn't like sandwiches.  I usually try to get lane fed here too.

1 pm: NAPTIME! I usually try to accomplish whatever I am up to (usually a house project) nuggies afternoon nap isn't as long as his morning one so he is usually the one that gets me first and we have some one on one time together.

3: wake up.  addy is a grumpy waker so it usualy takes 15-20 minutes of snacking, reading, etc before she is ready to go.

afternoon we have some play time and have started venturing out for errands as well.  there's a nice little pocket before traffic gets terrible, but I usually try to stay home.

5:30 daddy's home! everyone do the happy dance.  depending on how long lane has been up he is ready for bed now or by six.  we throw in dinner around here too.

after dinner lane is asleep and addy and daddy usually play, I clean up dinner and sometimes get the dogs out for a quick walk before addy's bedtime routine

7:30-8 we put addy down for bed. she is usually asleep before nine (that girl!) but talks to herself for a long time.

jim and I hang out, sometimes we work on project separately.  I try to be in bed around 10:30.  so that's where we are at. 

I am going to be so glad I wrote this out in the future.  I love my days right now with the two kids.  it's warming up and it's so nice to be outside and enjoying the sun.

have a great weekend!!!